I did something I know I shouldn’t have done.

Normally for New Year’s our congregation gets together in fellowship to ring in the new year. That didn’t happen this time. Like many churches we are struggling but that’s not important to the story.

Seeing as how there was no service planned, we opted to just chill cook some snacks (Thai finger foods) and watch some movies. I picked three films off of zune marketplace, films that I’ve never seen before. They are listed in order as follows:

Warrior
The Wrestler
Biutful

Biutiful however stands out on it’s own. It made me think an awful lot. It’s times like these I could just go to the dojo and work out alone.
Probably too much

I’m not feeling well and when I get this way I know that it’s going to be a long road ahead. I totally lost it in church today; had to go hide in the car. It was so embarrassing. They say the don’t mind but deep down I can see it in their eyes, they don’t want me there anymore. In the grand scheme of things, it’s not important.

After all this had happened and I just sat here in disgust of self-I logged onto facebook and the first thing I see Is a Jesus page that read: “Like if Jesus is greater than all of your weaknesses!”